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Spiritual Presence

“I have something to tell you,” the mother of a dear friend calls, as she walks slowly from her daughter’s porch toward the low fence dividing our yards. I look up from under the large brim of my gardening hat to see her smiling, while I shift the garden hose from the plant I was watering to the ground around a thirsty, flowering bush. We have happened upon a dry spell. All of the garden plants, as well as the lawns are thirsty.

“How are you feeling after your surgery?” I ask, continuing to water the garden.

Reaching the fence, she folds her arms easily over the fence’s top, settling into a comfortable and supported standing position. She looks tired, but well.

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The previous week, my neighbor had requested that I pray for her mother’s safety during her mother’s surgery.  Even though the surgery was a fairly routine procedure, I was told that my neighbor’s mother might encounter some complications due to the delicate nature of her general health.

With the fence steadying her, my friend’s mother continues, “I was in the hospital, you know, on the table for my operation. I had put that surgery off for a few years because of my other health issues. Anyway, it was an accident. The doctors cut a major something—a vein or artery—during my surgery.  Now, it was a complete accident.  I had to have a transfusion. Apparently, I have an irregularity in my–uh, my–uh…”

“Anatomy?” I fill in the word.

“Yes, in my anatomy,” she nods.

“Anatomical irregularities are fairly common,” I shift my watering hose to another location in the yard. “We are not as cookie-cutter, in terms of our anatomy, as we would like to think—or as the textbooks would have us believe.”

She continues, “Anyway, what I wanted to tell you is that you showed up.  Before everything went black because of the blood loss, you started talking to me like this—like we are talking now, over the fence.”

“What were we talking about?” I ask because my curiosity has been piqued.

“I don’t know. I don’t remember, but it was calming and friendly like.  Anyway, I wanted to tell you.”

And, in that moment, I say another prayer for the Grace that abides.

Of Healings & Bumper Stickers

While out walking, I ran across a parked car with a bumper sticker admonishing “healers” for charging money to do what Jesus did for free.  I thought to myself, “Even though I do not refer to the work I do as healings and I do not call myself a healer, the person who put that bumper sticker on that vehicle would most certainly put me and the work I do in the camp of reprobate ‘healers’ who charge money for sessions.”

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And, quite frankly, this same question about spiritual alignment, money and universal Light used to occupy my heart as well.  This is what the past many years of working with people on behalf of their highest Light has taught me about sessions, clients, money, unconditional Love  and universal Grace.

  1. Everyone has a pattern—their own unique pattern—that, if they were connected, fully grounded and following it, would allow them access to their highest Light. This is what heals.  (Thus, I personally do not heal you.  I ground you in your Light.  Your witting, consensual alignment with your highest Light guides you through your own healing process.)*
  2. Sometimes we need help rediscovering, recovering and/or grounding our highest Light in the context of our individual bodies and current circumstances. Family and social obligations can keep us from attending to ourselves as we should.  I often assist clients in “sorting themselves out” so that they can reexperience their personal Light.
  3. Money is energetically neutral. It is what we do with money that “charges” it energetically or spiritually.  Are we using money to help or injure, to support or deride?  Many of my clients go on to distinguish themselves in the realm of being able to care for others more efficiently because they have taken time to care for themselves.  Solid self-care leads to service.  I am compensated in the form of money payments for the unique service I provide.
  4. Working with the Light, in a formalized session, is potentially transformative because “we” (you, I and the Light) are all working in concert to create positive, lasting changes. With a clear agreement in place, changes tend to occur and unfold in positive and productive ways.  Clients committing to a formalized, paid session prepare very carefully and thoroughly to receive Grace.  This level of commitment and preparation supports the work in ways that less-formalized healings lack, except among the truly devout.  Thus, an appointment supports changes in behaviors, habits, efforts and intentions.
  5. Finally, as someone who works with the Light, it is easiest for me to maintain my own physical frame with a good healthy, clean lifestyle and whole, organic foods.  I am able to assist more people by being able to purchase my own organic foods products, rather than by growing and putting aside such foods from my hobby garden or by bartering for other goods.

*The body is designed to be self-repairing.  Individuals facing the greatest health challenges are those with genetic predispositions, auto-immune diseases, situations of exposure to unrecognized environmental toxins or those who engage in repeated self-injury.

Second Sight & Drive-by Healings

I am uncertain by exactly what mechanism I was given the gift of second sight; but, in 2001, receive it I did.  It may have happened as a result of my redoubled commitment to my yogic practices, because of a prolonged physical illness or simply because it was time for me to see the world from a more consistently spiritual perspective.  Whatever the reason or reasons for the addition of this gift to my toolbox-for-living, it altered and continues to inform the manner in which I interact with the physical world.

With second sight, one of the first things that you notice is that the physical plane possesses a spiritually or energetically visible and parallel component.  Thus, in my worldview—when I am observing with second sight or “on” and quite often I choose to be “off” for ease of social mobility—the world is comprised of an enhanced array of pure color which varies in intensity and luminosity.

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For example, taking into consideration the issue of a person’s health, if someone has a knee problem, the area around the knee in their spiritual field is usually dull in color or, in severe cases, may be completely non-luminescent.  And, we may work to instigate a change in our physical bodies by working from the inside out (proper nutrition, healthy movement, allopathic medicine, acupuncture, massage), the outside in (energetic work, meditation, healings, prayer, spiritual work) or by approaching an issue of concern from both directions.

In my experience, the most efficient path to tending the body addresses areas of concern from both the inside and the outside.  This is why, what I have termed “drive-by healings” do not usually hold or stick—because without a person’s consent to work, spiritual intervention, granted to an unwitting recipient provides no conscious, physical support for the spiritual gift that was granted.

Consider this when your mind is lolling about.  Bring the full weight of consciousness to bare in matters close to your heart and your long-term health.  Choose to care for yourself, from both the inside and the out.  You may be amazed at the difference it makes.

Spirituality: Amazing Grace VI

At night, after my first session with my second healer, I prayed japa-mantra style to ask about becoming a pure channel, changing the words up every so often to keep my mind focused and remain awake.

“Please make me a pure channel.  If it be Your will, O God, grant that I be made a pure channel by and for Divine Grace.  Render me a pure channel, if it is in my highest good.”

I suppose that I prayed for two hours or so, weaving myself a cradle in which to sleep with the subtle changes in the verb forms and with the different ways in which I like to address God, because when sleep came it was heavy and satisfying.

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In the morning, I awake before anyone else with my physical frame frozen, immobile against the bed.  My husband is asleep next to me, completely unaware and unfazed.  The bedroom is suffused with Unconditional Love.  Light is emanating from four Light Beings who are present—one at each side of the bed.

Nothing in my upbringing could have prepared me for this visitation.  Nothing in my spiritual practice would have prepared me for this experience of God’s Unconditional Love.

There are no words.  I lay in a pool of Light and intense emotion.  The feeling of Love, at some point, so overwhelms me that I peel myself off the bed by rolling to my side and carefully rolling off of our low bed frame.  I am on the floor on all fours.  Still, the intense emotion is  present.  Then, like a woman used to her space, who has just spent two unrelenting weeks with a new lover, I crawl to the front door of our apartment; and, reaching up to open the door, I ask Grace to please leave.  Love left and my heart nearly broke.

Spirituality: Amazing Grace V

“Have you considered the role of pure channel?” Elizabeth is looking at me directly.  This is my first visit to my second healer.  Elizabeth is intense, other-worldly—even as we go through the initial interview process.

“I don’t know.  What would that involve?  It sounds like a lot of responsibility.  I feel I have already been responsible and am still responsible.  The idea of taking on the role of pure channel makes me feel almost angry, as if a rebellion might be incited inside of me.  And, in physical, logistical terms, I cannot imagine myself walking up to strangers and giving them their personal, medical information.”

“Life is a process of co-creation,” Her statement hangs in the air.  Everything feels weightier in this space.  Words matter. Thought forms have density.  Actions are like heavy water.

Contracts are being reworked.

“So, who do you think you are?” Elizabeth presses.

“I do not know.  I really liked making art.  Beauty is important to me—creating beautiful things.  I miss that a lot.”

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I make the shift from the chair to the healing table.  Elizabeth uses a very different approach to working than the first healer.  From my perspective, this session feels more organic, less structured around specific protocols—as though some ancient blocks are being brought out into the Light.  During the session, I watch as the sculptural tools I have been carrying leave my body in favor of a beautiful, new pen and pencil desk set—quite exquisite.  I leave feeling significantly lighter and almost buoyant.

Spirituality: Amazing Grace II

Stepping into the home of my first official healer, I also step across the invisible threshold set up in my childhood, designed to protect me from illusion, traveling medicine wagons and promises of false cures.

“What an odd place to be,” I think.

The woman I am seeing trained with Barbara Brennan, which means she has done a substantial amount of self-work, as well as completing a full battery of academic science credits in anatomy, physiology and psychology.  She also possesses the gift of second sight—the means by which she does her healing work; thus, she can “see” energetically.  (Think Superman’s x-ray vision plus a clear view of all of the new-age aura phenomena.)

At some point during our interview,  I realize that I have actually met her once at Doctor Helen’s, where she turned away from me as though I were a street-walker with a heroin problem who had just crawled out of the gutter intent on crashing  Doctor Helen’s place for a plate of free food.  I wondered what she was seeing.  Her face readily confessed that, whatever she was seeing, it was not pretty.  The reaction seemed peculiar to me as I lead a pretty laced-up existence.

And, with my ego in full form at that moment, I thought, “Healer or not, she certainly is no candidate for poker in Vegas.”

So, here we were, seated across from one another in her remodeled and meticulously kept office, having a brief interview about why I am interested in a session.  Doctor Helen sent me.  What do I hope to get out of the session?  Better.

“Pragmatic.  I must keep an open mind.  I must remain pragmatic,” I am almost humming the mantra of the hour as I make myself comfortable on the healing table.

We begin and my third-eye flies open.  This is amazing.

Watching as she works her way through my energetic centers, she starts with the base chakra.  No serious stuff here.  Second chakra is a little wobbly.  Third chakra needs attention.  The filter is completely missing.  She realigns this energetic center, replacing the filter and giving me some tips about ensuring the filter’s proper placement and continued presence in my life.  Moving up, my heart seems to be suffering from some road burn.  I witness bits of gravel leaving.  Throat is cranky, looking something like the tin-man’s throat chakra needing some oil.

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My third-eye is amazing, the crown-jewel of my system.  This would be my gift.  I feel profound gratitude for my new ability to actually see what is going on spiritually.  I will no longer have to rely upon merely sensing things, nor will I have to deal with people telling me I am excessively sensitive or, worse, that I possess an over-active imagination.  Second sight provides something of a visual confirmation for that which is unseen.  This is Reality.  My healthy skepticism will provide a balancing counterpoint to my gift.

At the top of my head, my crown seems to be over-stuffed, metaphorically, with antiquated space junk, which is logical in light of the mantra on pragmatism I have been using to integrate all of the new modalities and information coming in.  Where is the NASA clean-up crew?

We are finished.  The session is over.  I am left on the table with a timer ticking so that I do not rise too quickly.  It happened all too fast.  While I gel on the healing table, I hear water running in the sink upstairs.

And, although I am glimmering with Light, there is a fresh sorrow in my heart at not being able to stay in this state of Grace just a little bit longer.

Spirituality: Amazing Grace I

Over twenty of us are seated around a large oval dining table, replete with all manner of edibles atop an antique-white tablecloth.  It was a group effort to bring everything and everyone together in celebration for our hostess’ surprise eighty-somethingeth birthday.

Words of thanksgiving, honor and gratitude rise to the dining room’s tall ceiling, as we take turns telling stories about how Doctor Helen managed to grant us additional time and space to live in and with a variety of medical diagnoses “too advanced, incurable, untreatable, permanent condition or—sometimes—inoperable.”

Between tears of joy and gratitude, Doctor Helen gestures with her arthritic hands, uttering “Sh, sh. That’s enough.”

Despite her protests, the stories rumble on.  And, we all celebrate living.

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Over a year earlier, on the day I was scheduled to meet Doctor Helen for the first time, my husband stops the car outside of her home. I am not particularly hopeful or enthusiastic about seeing yet another MD.  But, a trusted neighbor recommended her work. Technically, Helen is retired and practicing everything but traditional allopathic medicine.  Coming from my recent experiences with allopathic medicine and from a skeptical, academic/medical home culture—where even spinal adjustments were considered akin to voodoo—I am not looking forward to visiting with any aspect of what Helen represents, whether it is traditional or alternative.

Before entering her home, my husband makes a point of turning off the vehicle and stopping me to establish eye contact.

“I want you to set aside all of your preconceived notions about medicine.  I don’t know what she practices, but I do know she put the color back into our child’s face.  I hope she can help you.”  This is coming from the mouth of an old-school doctor’s son.  I leave the car with this thought rolling around in my head.

Doctor Helen offers many new options to absorb, consider, experience, reject or embrace.  Fortunately I possess a broad pragmatic streak and high level of innate curiosity.  These two personality traits have allowed me to explore a broader range of alternative-care modalities than most individuals might normally consider.  Yet, just as I  found my new comfort zone in the realm of alternative therapies, Doctor Helen surprises me one day with another idea.

“I want you to go see a healer,” she announces.

“Why?” I ask in all earnestness.

“I think there are some old things that need to be addressed that the other treatments are not taking care of.  I can feel it here,” she says rubbing her sternum with the heel of her hand.

And, because Doctor Helen is the doctor, I capitulate.  “Okay, if you think that it is best, I will give it a try,” I respond dutifully.

After all, what do I have to lose?